(Author attempted to write this without proper flow beforehand just to try and get all the honest feels out, in the moment. Recommended to listen to 'Kamu Cantik Kamu Baik' while reading.)
Hello! It's been a while since I came here, eh?
Reading my last post back, it's clear to me that I've gone through a thousand and one things since. The last time I wrote here, I was in a really glum place — one where I thought I couldn't escape from on my own and that I was helpless trapped in fate's fists.
Well.. glad to say that I'm in a whole different world now as compared to then.
Let me get you up to speed; first of all, I just got married! Whaaaaa?
Thought I'd start things off with the most significant thing that happened. Aha. And if you're wondering, no, it's not with the person that my previous posts had been about. I've learnt to face the fact that things happened, and it wasn't something I was willing to mess myself up again trying to salvage.
Yes, I occasionally do remember moments and glimpses of all that I used to go through, both good and bad ones, and I do reminisce them. Those were part of my life too and I don't necessarily want to forget them, as pained as they make me feel. But I've learnt to swallow the truth that things (and that includes the people) back then and now are so vastly different that they now feel like two separate things entirely.
It took a lot of time and even more courage to face that, but what matters is I survived!!
I'm with a very wonderful person (if you minus the dry texting and extensive gaming hours and—) who takes very good care of me, gives me my food cravings more often than he does flowers, tries his best to understand my endless mood swings.. I could go on and on.
We met very unexpectedly, and during the time I felt like my lowest. It was a rocky start but we're both here now. I've got myself a wonderful family-in-law, my wedding, despite the hecticness and exhaustion of the months beforehand, felt like a family & friends gathering and a party combined into one. Despite a lot of ups & downs during the preparations and the actual event, I honestly couldn't have wished for a better wedding.
Or should I say.. weddings?
Because I happened to get myself a Kuching boy — who happens to have a very, very extensive family. So of course we had to do both sides. And honestly, both of them had so vastly different settings but were just as amazing.
Oh, and don't even get me started on the nikah day. That morning was HECTIC (read that in a loud, booming voice) and quite a handful of things didn't go very right, but I'm so glad it happened. I stressed, I laughed, I felt emotional, all the usual things one would feel when the responsibility of oneself is passed from father to a new person.
Ugh, happy happy happy. That's all I can say.
Other than that big news, I got my full driving license now. Said goodbye to probation!
Speaking of probation! I've changed jobs twice now since I last wrote here; made wonderful, hilarious friends from the second job and now I'm here at my third.
I still meet up and gather with my second-job-friends ever so often, they're a refreshing bunch. The job itself wasn't so great for my work-life-balance but I'm glad I met really nice people through all that.
I know this all seem so abrupt and different from how I was last time, but I just found to energy and motivation to give this blog a little update. I also had written a post during my relationship-phase about him, so I might post that just as a throwback to how I was before tying the knot, haha!
Currently trying to recover financially from all the wedding expenses that we scooped out, still a rocky road ahead but we're trying our best everyday. We're even waiting until we have enough to be comfortable before going on our honeymoon!
Also living with two cats now, changed my phone, got a new job title and just got some new piercings. I cried, I laughed, I lived. Felt like I went though a whole character-development arc.
If anyone happens to read this, thanks for sticking around.
