It’s been a hard day. Or week. Or months.

I don’t know how much I have left in me, it’s hard enough to go a whole day without breaking down anymore. So I’m distracting myself by writing this post.

I know I should have full trust in God, especially about the things I have no control over. I know that He would never disappoint me and that He hears all my duas and wouldn’t make me beg for something without giving me. It’s just that my own strength wavers every so often and I’m just.. weak.

But every time I feel like giving up, I’d suddenly get this urge and excitement to get up and pray for that thing even more — no matter how hurt I felt at that moment. Sometimes the more hurt I feel, the harder I pray that very thing. I now feel excited to pray just because I can dua as hard as I can over and over for that one thing.

:)

Maybe I should do something to distract my thoughts away, something fun that I’d actually enjoy doing. I’ve been thinking of opening a spam account of some sorts, somewhere I can just dump pictures from my gallery without care and make it just a place for memories. Like a ‘take a look inside my phone gallery’ kinda thing.

Of course, it’d be filled with pictures that would bring my heartache but whoops! What can I do?

What else can I say to keep my thoughts sane for now..

Personal achievements I’ve got so far, I guess?