You know, I’ve been thinking a lot of what I’m doing nowadays. Since it’s (currently) semester break, I find myself being so couch-potato-ey since I have nothing to do. Maybe a tad bit too much.

So today, I practically spent most of the day sewing and altering two pairs of pants. And considering how long it’s been since I last sewed anything, can I just say I did a good job at making darts on my pants? Because I think I did.

Anyways! I feel kinda happy with myself that I actually did something productive today. Sure, that’ll not make up for the weeks of lazing around but baby steps.

I also used to make so much art — whether it’s watercoloring or journaling. But now I can barely make myself sketch and ughh I hope I’ll get into enthusiastically making art soon.

Part of me still wants to laze around while I’m not bombarded with assignments but the other part is telling me to get off my lazy butt and do something useful. Sheesh. It’s 3AM, I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Let's get this outta the way: I really like online shopping. I mean, it's like getting a present for yourself! One day you're clicking away on your laptop and the next day poof! "hello, you have a parcel."

Hey, you know what the say about treating yourselves, right?

What's not so great about it is that I'd end up spending too much for this I don't really need. Haha. Plus I'm someone who, once I get obsessed about something it could last for months. Let's take, for example, my Venom obsession. I once got so into it, that I was willing to spend 90+ bucks for an enamel pin. A pin, not pins, and no, it wasn't actually that obscenely expensive, just currency matters.

(thank goodness I didn't actually buy it, lol)

So you get the gist. My decisions get clouded sometimes, haha. But! Currently I'm not so fandom-y and I find myself buying things that are actually useful to me (well, most of them at least) like clothes and a belt (a belt! finally! never knew I needed one until I had it)

Also, metal straws? Pretty and reducing single-use plastic? Amazing. The only thing stopping me from buying them is my anxiety whenever I think of asking for no straws. Lol.

Anyways, now I'm trying to control how much I spend and hopefully it's a bit easier now since I don't have tendencies to buy a Venom pin or a Harvard hoodie or something (spoiler alert: I already have the hoodie)