someone i loved just passed away.
it was so sudden, i didn’t even knew
it wasn’t even recent, but i never got to see their face with they were found
only got the news around five months after? maybe more, i’m really not sure
i am far away from them so it’s understandable
only got the news around five months after? maybe more, i’m really not sure
i am far away from them so it’s understandable
someone i loved just passed away.
i will never forget how they used to be my only candle, lighting up the cave for me
the way they would be my only friend in the sea of my own thoughts and insecurity
they took care of me a lot, supported my everything with their everything
made me know how it was to be loved for the first time in my years of living
and their little gestures to remind me of it
i will never forget their soft words as my tears waterfall down my cheeks
their vulnerability, happiness, all their deepest secrets
i will willingly carry them along with me
someone i loved just passed away.
they said it was murder, but they never found who did it though
probably one of their friends, they mentioned one in particular did not like them at all
they moved away to get rid of all that trouble, and it worked well
or so it seemed?
maybe that friend finally got to them in their last moments
i’m not sure, and i don’t think i will try to find out
maybe that friend might go after me too if i did
they said it was murder, but they never found who did it though
probably one of their friends, they mentioned one in particular did not like them at all
they moved away to get rid of all that trouble, and it worked well
or so it seemed?
maybe that friend finally got to them in their last moments
i’m not sure, and i don’t think i will try to find out
maybe that friend might go after me too if i did
someone i loved just passed away.
i didn’t even realised it at first
it wasn’t until i didn’t hear from them anymore
when i tried to call to them but no one answered
when i didn’t get those little notes of encouragement anymore
when it became apparent to me how mundane the real world truly was
later i found out someone else was already living at their apartment
someone i loved just passed away.
i don’t visit their gravestone, never once did
that’s not my way of grieving for them
i may have lost them physically, but their soul still lives on in my heart
the very heart they managed to make so soft
i will forever be in debt to them for all the love they poured for me
oh, if only i could return the gesture to them
their laugh keeps me going, even though i can no longer witness it with my own eyes
tears no longer stream down my face when i think of them
it seems that i’ve accepted it before i even knew they died
someone i loved just passed away.
maybe one day, this will all be in the distant past
the feelings, the gloom, the heavy-hearted acceptance
one day, maybe i’ll even forget their face
the memories they give me that are so happy but stull make me feel so sad all at once
but for now
until that day comes
i will move on in life, cherishing their bright soul in myself
they changed me, and so i will now always carry a part of them
even when they’re no longer here to hold my hand
someone i loved just passed away.
i’m so grateful i met them
